Its been a long Month

So a lot has been going on over the last month, between everyone in the house there have been doctors, and hospital visits and just busy days with work and kids in camp.  For me one thing I'm realizing I cant mask like I did before .  Something I read the other day said that this was to be expected as your mind understands how much it used to cover up and now it doesn't need too.    Its probably most visible in my working day- I have struggled to be as resilient as I once was-I blame the year off I had and the diagnosis.  I'm more of a worrier then before when it comes to work, that constant voice saying I cant let anyone down, or that no matter how hard I work I'm doing it wrong and not doing enough.  I have probably put too much pressure on myself to be great from the start- I know I am doing the people stuff well , and I'm being told my work is good so I just need to start listening to that.  Im struggling to update so I will leave it there for now